i’ve written the full story twice…

and i can’t leave it up. but, wow, i have really been fighting the memories. two nites ago i dreamed of snakes, then i saw a snake in real life yesterday. i read that dreaming about snakes can mean that you fear someone in your life, and the problems they have brought. couldn’t be a truer statement. i am returning to one person and her statement to me about my dad, or implication about him, and i just can’t seem to leave that. i feel like i only know half of the full story most of the time. anyone out there? anyone out there want to tell me the truth? isn’t it the year of truth? time for the truth? there are people who know the truth and they hold on to pieces of this story and won’t tell me, and i’m the one who needs to know. i feel so lied to.